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Messy

I am a messy person.

Just as my roommate of seventeen years. I distinctly remember dragging my heels to clean my room as a young child, but it’s not the same being an adult. Sometimes I have to straighten room, it gets out of hand. Even if it is at midnight!
Life lately has felt like those piles of clothes on my bedroom floor, MESSY. I am the type of person, who wants to fix my own problems, clean up my own messes (NOW!)
However it took me an hour and a half of tears to realize I could straighten this mess alone. I needed help. I needed God’s help straighten my life. I was reminded of Jeremiah 29:13,
“ If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.”
If I only stopped trying to fix it and asked God all of this pain could have been avoided. If you seek God out, He will help you straighten your life out. No matter how big we think our mess is God is bigger and loves to organize mess. God is a god of order not disorder.
“33 For God is not a God of disorder but of peace, as in all the meetings of God’s holy people.”
– 1 Corinthians 14:33
God loves to organize and straighten out the confusing parts of our lives. For the past couple weeks that, in all honesty have turned into a couple months, I have been on a road of healing/forgiveness/coming to terms with pain and it hasn’t been easy or fun. But nothing worthwhile comes easy, right?
That night, I realized I need to stop trying to fix EVERYTHING and let go of the broken and give to God.
In my quiet time this morning, I asked God to come into the middle of my mess and have his way in that. After my Jesus time this morning, I felt more alive in Him than I have in months. Healing is a process and it is a process possible for you. It is possible to feel whole again, to not hurt every time you see that person.
If you are on that road of healing/forgiveness/coming to terms with pain, I feel you. I am walking that path with you and want to encourage you in that.
Coming to terms with pain is a journey, but God will guide you. All you need to do is ask Him!
Healing is a process, but a worthy process.
Forgiveness is a path paved with tears, but hold on to the One who holds your tears, He’s got you!!

Love and Hugs!

P.S.
That roommate was/is my sister! 🙂

 

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War Paint

I have the most respect and love for those men and women, who leave home and go to war, fight for you and me, and die a hero’s death. It give me so much pride when my friends say, ‘I am joining the Marines’ or I am joining the Army.’ While they are fighting over the big pond (as my grandmother used to say) we are fighting over here.
Every day we go to war. A war for pure thought, pure actions, and pure motives. In today’s culture it is a battlefield to fight for purity. This summer I got in the habit of putting my “war paint” on every day. Not that I had anywhere to go, but because I needed to fight off the Enemy. Growing up with two brothers, my sister and I were teased that our respective makeup was war paint. I like that and am adopting that (sorry, bros!!)
This last year was a hard one for me emotionally; I wouldn’t say I was heartbroken, however my heart took some serious shrapnel. I am still healing from that and the Enemy is trying to take advantage of my vulnerability, hints the war paint. A warrior puts on war paint before going into war. We need to be ready for war against the Enemy every day, it’s only a matter of time before the first shot is fired.

 

Let’s be warriors, let’s have our weapons at the ready when he starts firing.

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Lest We Forget

Thomas Jefferson wrote, “All men are created equal.”
We are all created in the image of our Creator.
We are endowed unalienable rights.
Our rights were declared on the that day in 1776
The Declaration gave us the freedom, the life, the liberty
That independence is fought for today
Freedom is never free
There was blood shed for you and me so we can be free
Lest we forget
Those who died and are fighting for our freedom

 

Thank you to the service men and women who fight to keep our freedoms free!!

 

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No Longer Slaves

I am a child of God.

Why am I still a slave to fear?

No one can serve two masters.

We can’t please God with our faith if we fear.

God split or seas, so we can walk through on dry ground.

But we are too afraid to take the first step.

We are too fearful the waves will crash over us

We need to cancel out fear with faith

Faith that we are children of God,

We are no longer slaves to fear.

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Perfect Love Expels Fear

I am no longer a slave to fear, so why do I still afraid of what people think of me, afraid of saying or doing the wrong thing.

I am still afraid of the dark. My candle shines through the darkness. Do you still fear the monsters hiding in the closet?

“God’s light came into the world, but people loved the darkness more than the light for their actions were evil. All those who do evil hate the light and refuse to go near it for fear that their sins would be exposed. But those who do what is right come to the light so other can see that they are doing what God wants.” -John 3:19-21 (NLT)

Throw off your chains and come to the light. Your sins may be seen, but you won’t be in the dark. God’s light shines through ALL darkness.

we only need to worry about His thoughts about what we say and do.

“For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts” -Isaiah 55:9 (NLT)

His approval is the only one we should be striving for, his love will ever fail us. his light breaks through our dark places. His love conquers all fear. his perfect love drowned my fears.

There is no fear in love,

“For perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment , and his shows that we have not experienced his perfect love.”- 1 John 4:18

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Breaking Through the Armor

 

For years, I lived by the belief that I needed to be strong for my family. That crying was a sign of weakness, so I didn’t.   I bottled up all my emotions behind a suit of armor. My armor was so strong no one ever saw through it. No one knew I as really breaking inside. No one knew my pain. No one knew what emotions were inside, because I never let them out. Whenever I felt emotion rise to the surface, I would push them back behind my suit of armor. I lived that way for years, before I realized there was no shame in the tears I cried. My Heavenly Father doesn’t see crying as a sign of weakness, but a sign of worship. When we can’t find the words to say, tears speak on our behalf.

My grandmother told me that,

‘Girls don’t need a reason to cry.’

That is such wise advice I wish I took heed to it when Memaw shared it with me, but now I live by that.  My rule #2: Cry when you need to, is something I have got to work at.

Yesterday, I was feeling the need to cry, so I watched my favorite chick flick, 27 Dress, to cry. However, I spent so long pushing my emotions down that, I literally couldn’t cry. Okay, I did shed one tear, but that doesn’t count.

Last night, my suit of armor fell away. The light broke through. At Wesley, I cried for an hour, I think the last time I cried like that was 2 months ago. Sometimes we just need to cry and yesterday that was exactly what I needed. A cry to refresh my thinking and my heart.

Crying is not a sign of weakness; it is a sign that you’re human. It’s a sign that we can’t take the pressures of life and need Jesus. When we can’t find the words to say, we can literally cry out to Jesus.

“Here on earth, you will have trial and sorrows. But take heart I have overcome the world.”  -Jesus, John 16:33

This world is hard. We face trial, struggle and change every day, but take comfort in Jesus’ words. He has overcome every trial, struggle or change we may face.

So grab some tissues and have yourself a good cry; sometimes that’s all we need to see things clearer.

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We are Children of God!

I was reading my prayer journal from November 2015 to July 2016 and stumbled across this passage from Clay Scroggins, one of my favorite preachers.
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I thought you would enjoy it.

“I belong to God.

I have been chosen by God.

I am a new creation in him.

I am FORGIVEN by Him.

I am included in Him.

I am secure in Him.

I am complete in Jesus.

I am not alone.

I am dearly loved exactly how I am not how I am should to be.

I am SET FREE.

I cannot be separated from the love of God.

I may approach God with freedom, boldness, and confidence.

I have been redeemed.

The sin in and against me has been CANCELED.

I have been made complete in Jesus.

I am a child of God.”

-Clay Scroggins