What are you seeking?
A very important question posed by Jesus himself. Fun fact: these are the first words of Jesus the gospel John records. That question is vital for life. Once you discover what you’re seeking everything else falls into place. Life has meaning when you know what you are seeking. Seek means to find. So, what are you looking for? In the culture we live in, we seek more of this world; more success, more credit. We seek more. That’s backwards. John 10:10 says,
“10 The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.”
Christ died for us to have more, but we still strive to find more in the world. I have been struggling with doubts and reverted to my old ways of looking for my affirmation in the people around me. Girls, by nature, like compliment from people and if is a compliment from a guy we are over the moon. But we shouldn’t strive to get our compliments, our worth from the people around us. God says we are worth more than a whole flock of sparrows (Matthew 10:31).
One day, my mom gave me two cents for helping around the house. I stared at those two pennies for minute and the lies were assaulting me. I am only worth to pennies?
I was quick to rebuke that lie with truth, God says I am worth more than sparrows.
It is so easy to forget God thinks you’re worth dying for and solely rely on what others think of you. I have been living in the state of relying on others, on others thoughts of me and others opinions. I kind of recognized this, but it became apparent to me when my mentor pointed it out in me. It felt like a punch to the gut. I knew I had relied too much on others. When my true worth comes from the Lord, not others opinions. It says in Isaiah 55:8-9,
“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the LORD.
“And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.
For just as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so my ways are higher than your ways
and my thoughts higher than your thoughts”
That verse says what other people think of me has no comparison to what God thinks of me. His thoughts and opinions are what matter, not those of others. Nothing anyone says about me should really matter, but it does.
So, what are you seeking?
Are you seeking approval from others or from God, your creator, who thinks you are worth dying for.
I am trying to retrain my brain to believe everything God thinks about me is true. He says there is no flaw in me (song of Solomon 4:7) I am worth dying for (John 3:16) and I am a citizen of Heaven (Philippians 3:20)
All of that is true for you. Believe it. God does.
What are you seeking?