“All your promises are yes and amen”
that doesn’t mean right now. Sometimes we have to wait to step into God’s best for us. We have to grow into the person we were meant to be. He is teaching me to follow the path He is paving for me.
“Show me the right path, O Lord; point out the road for me to follow.”~Psalm 25:4
“I will rest in your promises.”
Not one of your promises have failed yet.
“Now I am about to go the way of all the earth. You know with all your heart and soul that not one of all the good promises the Lord your God gave you has failed. Every promise has been fulfilled; not one has failed.” ~Joshua 23:13
I have to hold on to the hope that you will prevail for me.
I do not know how you spent your new year, but I was praising Jesus with 54,999 of my closest friends. My brothers and I attended the Passion Conference held in the Georgia Dome in Atlanta, Georgia. It was the most awesome incredibly powerful spirit moving experience I have ever attended. Over the three days, we heard from Louie Giglio, Francis Chan, Beth Moore, Christine Caine and Levi Lusko. I enjoyed all of the speakers, but the most effective was Lou Giglio. On Wednesday night, he spoke on Ephesians 3: 15-19 that says,
“From whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with of the Lord holy people to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of God and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”
Louie pointed out things I never considered…
“To describe the love of Christ Paul paints a picture of a cross. The cross at a certain angle makes an x; meaning Christ canceled your guilt and shame.”
That opened my eyes. For years, I kept my guilt and shame between God and me. I never really clicked that the guilt from my sins and the shame from those decisions is canceled. I do not have to feel guilt and shame. God has canceled my debt and called me His friend.
On January 3, 2016, I started the year off with a re-dedicatation to Jesus Christ. There is no other way to start the New Year, in my opinion.
“It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me.” Galatians 2:20
Much Love and Many Blessings,
I was knitted perfectly from my beginning; God never had to unravel me. I was perfect from conception. He wove all the intricate pieces of my life together. all my hurts, pains, and weird hobbies.
it probably sounds like an activity for your grandmother, but it’s true. I knit. I knit scarves. I have not started knitting a scarf and it as gone perfectly. Meaning I would not have to unravel it for one reason or another, an increased stitch or a slipped stitch. It’s comforting that the Master Knitter never had to unravel me or worse be in the process of knitting something and then just forget it. He is constantly knitting together every thing I do to make a beautiful blanket.
“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.”-Psalm 139:13
God knit me inside of my mother’s womb. Which is amazing! He knew me before I was known. He called me before anyone knew my name. God is the Master Knitter, who knit you and me together. He is weaving the details of our life together all the struggles and pain will bring beauty from the ashes.
I will trust you through the waiting. The trial and change does not surprise you, You have spent the first 21 years of my life preparing me for this. You are the same through the trial and the change through the sleepless nights and broken hearts.
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. (Hebrews 13:8 NIV)
Even when it feels I am drowning in regret, Your grace will lift me up and I will rise in your victory. You stand with me through the fire and flames.
Never will I leave you nor will I forsake you. (Hebrews 13:5)
I will cling to the truth Solomon wrote in Proverbs.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; (Proverbs 3:5 NIV)
Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. (Proverbs 4:23 NIV)
Keep your eyes straight ahead; ignore all sideshow distractions. Watch your step, and the road will stretch out smooth before you. Look neither right nor left; leave evil in the dust. (Proverbs 4:25-27 MSG)
I was working on a post about hope, when my cousin texted me Isaiah 26:3,
“You will keep in perfect peace
him whose mind is steadfast,
because he trusts in you.”
She knows me so well that she probably knows I’m stressing over things I have no control over. And that assumption I correct. Last week I was riding stress on an emotional roller coaster, that was terrible! When I would be in tears people told me ‘It’ll be okay. it’ll be okay, is what my head I telling my heart. but it does seem to calm my racing heart. The one thing that will calm me is quality time with Jesus. Last weekend, I had planned to have an awesome me&Jesus weekend and it didn’t work out that way. it turned out to be a very stressful weekend. but last Friday night I pulled an all-nighter with Jesus. it was a precious time that I will remember for years. I laid on the couch and watched Bethel Music lyric videos and cried. that cry and being with Jesus was what I need to face this week, not to say I haven’t cried this week.
one of my favorite Bible verses is found in Psalms. Psalms 46:10,
“Be still and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”
I am beating myself up for forgetting that verse while these dark storm clouds hovered over me. it flashed in my mind when my cousin texted me! I have been so caught up in what I can’t fix, and left God the sideline. And I need Him to take some of this stress off of me and place my heart in a peaceful place. I want peace at heart.
I want peace, peace in my heart. you know what I’m dealing with probably better than I do. you know the peace I need and the peace we all need. We need peace in our communities and peace in our lives. Awaken us to your precious peace.
in Jesus Name, Amen
After writing this I feel so much better. having a blog was the best idea ever.
I am so stressed out and I hate it. I hate having so much on my plate that I am overwhelmed.
Fun Fact: When dealing with stressed Mary Hannah, let her bake something. it doesn’t matter what, but baking makes me feel so much better. Baking helps me reconnect with my grandmother. Baking was something we shared. We made some great memories over her Kitchen Aid mixer! It been three years now since she’s been gone, but it feel like yesterday. No one will ever know just how close we were. Not a day goes by that I don’t miss her. especially right now during this season of life, when I really want to cry. she would say, ‘Girls don’t need a reason to cry’. Actually whenever I’m in a mood let me bake.
This morning during my Jesus time, I was on my knees crying out to Him.
‘I cant handle this God, take this from me.’
in Mark 14:36, Jesus crys out to God to take this cup from him, to be put to death on the cross for you and me.
I was crying out that God would take my overflowing cup of emotional stress from me and when I stood up I felt a release, a weight lifted off my shoulders. But I still feel like I need to bake something. I’m human and I am still stressing. Humans stress over irrational things when they know God is in control of the situation. I felt like I was in over my head in emotional stress and I heard Bethel Music’s In Over My Head (my new fave, I cant share the video b/c my laptop is stupid and 3 years old, but I recommend looking it up on youtube). And realized even when I am drowning in stress, I am still drowning in His unending, unfailing, perfect love.
There has been a picture in my mind of a father greeting a child with open arms. Arms of love. I think back to the Prodigal Son ( Luke 15:11-31) and how he thought his father was gonna take him bac as a slave, but his dad was was so happy and joyful when his son was in sight; he threw a PARTY!
I think God has been waiting for my moment of surrender and today we threw a party! today was a good day(including free coffee, great conversation and an awesome movie with friends) after that moment of surrender and I will cherish that moment forever! . And it has been a long time coming, but I have surrendered my stress into those loving arms. And it feels so good!
not so stressed
Change is hard. Change feels like it’s gonna kill ya!
I don’t like change at all! In my life change has resulted in the death of family members. So my attitude to change is not a smiley face.
‘And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.’ (Romans 8:28 NIV)
So every change has a plan and purpose in my life for my good. Does that make it easier to handle change? Heck, no! But it does make me realize everything happens for a reason, that there is a purpose behind every change I go through. there is a blessing on the other side of this change. Change is only for a season, but it can feel like an eternity.
I am going through some changes right now, that are not fun. I know God has a reason behind every change. and a blessing on the other side of every change.
Last year, I read Kristen Strong’s Girl Meets Change and am reading through it again. i think she wrote the book just for me, it is how to handle change better. One of my many favorite quotes from Kristen’s book is,
‘If God is sending you to a new place He is sending you with a promise.’ That promise is a promise of blessings. when you come of this season of change there will be a blessing on the other side. going through change hurts and always costs you something. that’s the price Change asks you to pay. A friendship, a job, or the loss of a loved one. I have been through all those changes and I know I came out stronger person.
what doesn’t kill you does make you stronger. although change feels like it’s going to kill you; in the end you will be a stronger person.
Change hurts, but it’s worth going through to find the blessing.
From the Lord comes deliverance. May your blessing be on your people. (Psalm 3:8 NIV)